Below are the most recent 21 friends' journal entries.

Tuesday, December 29th, 2009
deathboy	12:18a	SHAME SHAME SHAME SHAME SHAME SHAME OH GOD THE SHAME Having used the Mac all Christmas (visiting parents, not taking two laptops for the sake of it, need the Apple to work over the holiday), I just got home and within ten minutes of firing up my beloved PC laptop, I did knowingly, and flagrantly: * Paw at the track pad with two fingers, attempting an Apple scroll in full public view * Press two fingers on the pad and click upon the left mouse button to attempt a right-click, without a current license * With malice of forethought, I did viciously Hit ALT-T in Firefox to open a new tab, clawing for the absent Apple-key I sicken myself. I am going to take myself outside and have a very stern drink and a cigarette and think about what I've done. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! HANGING'S TOO GOOD FOR ME! (the wife is disgusted and thinks I'm going to start listening to Damien Rice, apparently) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 28th, 2009
deathboy	11:33a	here we go A first-hand portrayal of the events on the plane to Detroit that's all over the news: Over Detroit Skies like the title doesn't stink of evocative ghost-written memoirs enough, you have to read it to really appreciate the level to which the media wants to sell us a narrative, rather than a news piece. ... which people are, of course, swallowing hook, line and sinker. Can't wait for the movie! (19 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 27th, 2009
annajaneclare	10:40p	I WILL DESTROY YOU! ( You are about to view content that may not be appropriate for minors. ) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 26th, 2009
deathboy	11:26p	lies Anything that Kirsten posts in the next ten minutes or so is a lie. That is all. (13 Comments |Comment on this)
ocularsinister	8:58p	1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before? Nothing. 2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't recall making any. 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? No. 4. Did anyone close to you die? No. Unless my parent's cat, WYSIWYG counts... 5. What countries did you visit? France, Germany. 6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in most of 2009? Time. 7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? Hmmmmm... can I have two? February 14th and July 19th 8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Staying alive. 9. What was your biggest failure? Fucking things up. 10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Just the usual gut rot and flu. 11. What was the best thing you bought? Jeffrey West winkle pickers. 12. Whose behaviour merited celebration? I've heard that you have all been very, very naughty. 13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed? JMF 14. Where did most of your money go? Fuck knows! 15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Noemie. 16. What song will always remind you of 2009? So many to choose from! For the sake of choosing one: Specimen - Kiss, Kiss, Bang, Bang! 17. Compared to this time last year, you are: More mixed up. 18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Music. 19. What do you wish you'd done less of?' Crying. 20. How did you be spending Christmas? Alone. 22. Did you fall in love in 2009? Yes. 23. How many one-night stands? The cheek of it! None! 24. What was your favourite TV program? Meh! 25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? Its too easy to hate, but I'm stronger than that. 26. What was the best book you read? Nights at the Circus - Angela Carter 27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Quite a few to choose from again, but I'm going to pick Frustration. 28. What did you want and get? Love 29. What did you want and not get? Love 30. What was your favourite film of this year? I didn't watch many films! Of the one or two I saw: The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus 31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I got drunk at Big Red with Purple Carol, Chris, Karen and loads of other wonderful people. 32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Only one thing!? 33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009? Kitten prints. 34. What kept you sane? Beating my head against the wall. Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
deathboy	12:01p	heh Forum quote regarding the "terrorist" incident: "Maybe he just realised he was going to be in Detroit and decided to end it all" (1 Comment |Comment on this)
deathboy	11:56a	TTERRRORRRR TERROR TERROR TERROR TERROR BOMB BOMB BOMB BOMB Just a quick preview of what you're about to see in the media for the next six months. Or, to put it another way: Another hapless would-be bomber fails to hurt anyone and gets caught and nobody gives a wet slap. Plus, as my wife points out, he was flying into DETROIT. If a plane exploded over Detroit, the locals would only notice that it was slightly warmer for a while, it already looks like it's been bombed. British-born bombers really miss the point... That's like when that guy tried to set his car on fire and drive it into a Scottish airport. An airport full of pasty Scots waiting to catch budget flights to Spain. These people were going to burn anyway. The only thing these feckless amateur "terrorists" successfully do is make my bird's flights more of a nuisance due to reactionary security theatre. Of course, this will give politicians the opportunity to protect the living daylights out of us. Hurraaaaaay. (39 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 24th, 2009
annajaneclare	12:56a	I hope Santa shits down your chimney ( You are about to view content that may not be appropriate for minors. ) Current Mood: angry (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 23rd, 2009
deathboy	5:37p	holidays Morning begins with mom knocking the door, then immediately opening it and starting a conversation, waking us up (then literally just backs out, closes the door and walks off as I complain at her rudeness)... Dad opens a parcel addressed to me (but at their address), realises it's for me, then tell me what it is, thus spoiling the surprise Kirsten planned to be her Christmas present to me, leaving her frustrated and upset... Corben may have swine-flu and, in conjunction with my trick-shoulder (which is in a bad way after dragging huge present-laden bags up-country yesterday) wakes me up every 1-2 hours last night and covers most of us in vomit on various occasions... Sitting in the dining room, talking to Kirsten on MSN because I have to work and she has to study and the rest of the house is not particularly conducive to either... Yep, it's Christmas with my family! I say all of this with a wry smile - it's heavy-going, but it's good to be with my family, no matter what they're like, and better still to have Kirsten here, and get to see in Christmas with the nipper. I'd love to pretend this wasn't how they advertised adulthood in the brochure, but I'm from the midlands, where this is considered the deluxe package :) hoooooboy :) (12 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 21st, 2009
maxrael	5:01p	10 years on It was ten years ago History Of Guns released our first CD, Little Miss Suicide EP. To celebrate it's available for free download from Last FM for a limited period, see here: http://www.last.fm/music/History+of+Guns/Little+Miss+Suicide+EP If you're not on Last FM, email me at historyofguns@hotmail.com and i'll mail it to you in a zip. Previous guns demos were all recorded and mixed at demo studios. This was the first thing I recorded and mixed at home on a PC. To be honest listening back to it now, bearing in mind I didn't have a clue what I was doing when I mixed it, I was expecting it to sound a lot worse than it does. As ever please feel free to re-post, tweet or otherwise share the link with the rest of the world. (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 20th, 2009
maxrael	11:12a	India Been back 10 days now and not had a chance to write up India trip. Fortunately Caden was pretty good on the flights and slept most of the time. India was amazing. First half we (me, wifeface, caden, parents in-law and sister in-law) were in southern Goa right at the start of the season so it was still pretty deserted and maybe a bit too hot in the middle of the day. (they were just starting their winter). Stayed in a lovely villa with a shared swimming pool and beach very close by. Most of the time had it all to ourselves! Goa as you'd expect is very tourist-friendly, most people speak English. It's predominantly Catholic (Portugese descent) so booze and alcohol abound. Sadly the Goa-Trance has all but been killed off by a change in the law banning outdoor parties (apart from a brief season when it's allowed around New Year, see the Sunburn festival for more info) 2nd half of the holiday, complete culture shock as we got an internal flight to a small village in Gudjuarat where my wife's Dad is from for a big family wedding. Dirt tracks, cows wandering around, no air conditioning, patchy electricity... people getting up at 5am to light the fires heat the water. We had an outhouse with a gas-powered hot water tap which was newly installed. Never mind not speaking English most people had never seen a white person not on television. They stared and stared in an unashamedly curious way and little children dared each other to come and say things to me. It was very much communal living, doors are left open all the time and random people from the village wander into your house at any time. Oh and there's not really alcohol. Wifeface and sister in-law had roles to play in the wedding so were busy with preparations for 3 days... and then the wedding lasted for 3 days and then we were on our way home. With hindsight we should have had the relaxing Goa beach-part 2nd! I met excellent people but also had plenty of time to myself to think and read. Caden loved it. Made a lot of friends and spent most of the time playing in the mud. I've wanted to go to India since I was about 13 years old and was relieved it didn't let me down at all. I completely loved it. Hope to go back next time for a few months, hopefully within the next few years if I can manage it. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 19th, 2009
deathboy	8:03p	Android Just picked up an Android G2, what's the essential software for such a toy?* * "bluh bluh bluh, I have a tiny dick, your phone is shit haw haw haw" fuckwits need not bother answering, cheers. (26 Comments |Comment on this)
deathboy	8:29a	mawkish, moi? Am currently in a lovely little island of calm between on-going house-moving logistics (all papers filed, waiting for references to come back, thinking about which days will have be be curtailed from my family visit to make the move once I get the keys) and keeping to the deadlines I have racked up for the "holiday" (which is increasingly becoming a misnomer). I mean, yes, I'm awake before 8am on a saturday, having had about 4 hours sleep, but importantly, I went to sleep in and woke up to a bedroom containing my wife and my son. I am big ape in his techno-cave, with his family. Sleeping sounds and blinking LEDs and plasma screen with illustrated, anthropomorphic, singing animals entertaining the little one. This makes big ape happy. Plus, big ape should be getting a shiny new gadget-phone and a pocket-sized HDMI divx player delivered between now and lunchtime. Which also makes big ape quite pleased. Nothing like fulfilling Maslow's hierarchy of needs from both directions at the same time :) Later today, a last bit of Christmas shopping, a little work, and another evening with Corben visiting. I'm cautious not to jinx things - my metaphorical knackers are still sore from the collective kickings delivered over the last week - but a bit of determination and the reassurance of having my wonderful wife and extended social circle there for some back-up is going a long way. If i can get away with a nap or two without Corben playing the bongos on my head, I shall consider the weekend quite successfully begun. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 17th, 2009
deathboy	8:22a	the rabbit THE RABBIT HAS ENTERED THE WARREN! REPEAT THE RABBIT HAS ENTERED THE WARREN! OPEN CHARLIE TUNNEL WE DIG TILL DAWN! (kirsten got in fine, we actually got exactly the luck I'd prayed for, no heavy questioning, booyah!) :D (12 Comments |Comment on this)
deathboy	6:35a	vibes Hokayyyy motherfuckers! Today shall be potentially challenging. Picking Kirsten up from Heathrow soon, for the Christmas hols... we've been warned that we could face even more of a barrage of questions than normal because she now is clearly married to me (my surname and everything, something we could have avoided, doh!) then they will want even more robust proof that she won't overstay her welcome. Of course, it might just be the standard "show your return ticket, answer a few questions about your stay" affair, in which case I shall be able to scoop her up in an hour! We don't quite get a month this time, about three-and-a-bit weeks, but I've been just about going out of my mind missing her, so fingers crossed immigration smile upon our array of "look seriously, she's in the last six months of a 5 year degree, she ain't staying here" evidence :P I shall report back! Annnnd next, I shall be finishing my forms and handing them in to the estate agents later today. I don't THINK I need luck with these as my references normally check out, but given the potential level of bureaucracy and ineptitude that is seemingly endemic throughout Britain's property "professionals", I would be glad of a prevailing wind at my back so we could start moving in next week. We shall seeeeee. Cross your internal organs for me, folks. Good vibes, vibraphones, vibrators and copies of Vib Ribbon all graciously accepted! I'm off to lasso me a wife! (14 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 16th, 2009
deathboy	2:44p	Ouch. Just added up what this move IS costing me, and effectively, it's going to eat my entire christmas bonus. Fuck it. 's only money. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
deathboy	2:39p	Ah fuckedy HAHA! Found a room. Same (CHEAP) money I'm paying now, 10 minutes walk from where I live now, available immediately. In fact, the only down side is that it's 3rd floor. I guess that's going to get me and Corben fit, but it's not the end of the universe. I've put down a deposit, and will get them the documents tomorrow, I could very possibly be ready to move in before Christmas, or immediately in the new year. Which means that I'll get the shitty moving part out of the way before the current dayjob project goes thermonuclear. Of course, I'm dropping money on things like a (bullshit) admin fee and finding a new deposit, etc, but everywhere you live is a compromise, so fuck it. Fingers crossed my references go through quickly and trouble-free. Fucking GET IN. (17 Comments |Comment on this)
annajaneclare	4:22a	( You are about to view content that may not be appropriate for minors. ) (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 15th, 2009
deathboy	11:18p	improvement am feeling better than earlier. been talking to friends and kirsten, my folks and corben's mom about how things might work out and at least I seem to have a number of escape plans. in the short term, there's a few properties slap bang in the middle of enfield that I'm going to try to look at *tomorrow* that suit perfectly. If I could absolutely sprint through the process, I could move before christmas and know that I'm coming back after seeing my folks, to my own place. Not hugely likely, but not impossible. and kirsten will be helping me look, and my folks will make with the chequebook if needs be (finding a new deposit after christmas? just what I needed! ouch...) So, yis. Things will fix. I may need some help though. cheers for all the kind words, already, it does perk me up :) (10 Comments |Comment on this)
deathboy	6:15p	kick in the face Whelp, today has been something of a loss. I fucked up and Kirsten's actually coming thursday, not tomorrow. Mostly fixed by re-arranging hotel and asking lovely people if they could help me out on a different day. Then I got told that for us to hit our deadlines, I have to work throughout christmas. This is during the time i get to see kirsten, and while I will be looking after my son and travelling to and from my parents' in the midlands. I'd just about taken that on the chin, when my housemate asks if he can talk for five minutes, to tell me that he's kicking me out. In February. The start of February. This is during the time that our project will be finishing. And yes, he can do that, as we have no contracts here, because it's run as a sort of rolling house-share for Polish folks who may not stay long, or may leave abruptly. I figured there was a strange mood in the house, so I assume that everyone already knew, as it does get a bit us-and-them on the language and gossip front occasionally. I was told that it's because his sister is moving over and he needs the room for her to give her a start, but I don't know if that's true. My guess is that they finally got sick of me. So today has been quite extraordinarily bad. For the first time in my adult life, I'm considering taking my parents up on their offer of going home to live with them, because I feel as though I can't stand on my own two feet any more. It was already too much, I was already losing control, and this is now, categorically more than I can deal with. I'm not sure how I'm going to handle this. Second fucking christmas on the run, as well... people really want to STOP picking this time of year to make people homeless. Jesus. I don't even feel suicidal. I just feel... numb. I will turn this around. I don't currently know how. (22 Comments |Comment on this)
deathboy	2:24p	crap crap crap crappedy fuckballs You know when you're fucking furious about something, and want to be mad at the world, except that in actual fact, it's your own fault? Kirsten is not arriving tomorrow. She's FLYING tomorrow. I booked a hotel and asked a friend to take corben on the wrong day, and i don't get to see her tomorrow. It's like having christmas put back a day. FUCKING PISS. i'm an idiot, i should have remembered it was an overnight flight. i have been more happy. (6 Comments |Comment on this)